near fUture

my life as an adult & father ;D

Even though I might be 19 but having a vision of what I will do and what kind of life will I be living in the future is not something odd for some1 like me to be tinkin about. Ever since Im able to imagine I can’t stop imagining about my life after I graduate or during my work life.

My first goal is to have my own car well of course that is when I still living wit my parents. My dream car will be of course BMW. Who wouldn’t want a BMW rite but its only a dream car. My first car is goin to be the brand new civic. I love the aerodynamic of the car. A chrome blue-black coloured civic is da boom!

My second goal Is to buy either a luxury apartment high above the sky or at least a land property situated ontop of a hill that overlooking the kl city. i always love the scenery of a city during the nyte, I want to make sure dat if I were to have a landed property it must have a gym and a pool. But most importantly my house will have a super cool bar and the space will be huge enough to host a monthly weekend partay! Haha

My third goal is , since I have taken oath haha not to get married, so once I have a nice 6 figure income in my savings im gona adopt a little cute n handsome baby boy ;) why baby boy? Well simply because I am a boy and I know what the needs if a little young boy. He will have an undying love and care from me. he will go to the best of school, dance classes, music classes, martial arts and anything dat he want. I might spoil him yes, but I know he will love me as much as I love him koz he is my son ! ;) I want to name my son Daniel Zachery Amierul shabir hahaha panjang skit kot but I love Zachery . his frens will call him “Z” and that is soo cool. I will buy him his first car when he reach 18 along together with his 1^st motorcycle if he want to. I wana see him going to the club in his dope ride haha. What a cool father I’ll be rite YEAH! 

stagEs

sad, wana cry, down.
this is wat i felt when i was watching a youtube post in my cousin's fb page.

this short video clip is about the stages that exist in a relationship. i promise u that whoever yg tgk video ni yg pnh ade relationship for sure can relate to it someway. 

for me, i totally 1000% can relate to tis vid. its the same proses i've been tru when i was in high skol.

the saddest moment for me is when the guy read anniversary note from his gf but then he has already broke up. 

i still have a jurnal wich is soo dear to me. 

my most priceless possession.

much more priceless then my armani bags, gucci jackets, domanchi shoes

and any other stuff.

even if u give me 1 million $ i wouldnt gave it to u

simply bkoz it is a memory n u cant buy 

some1 memory could u?

after watching this vids i look back at the jurnal and read it again n 

i swear , no matter how much i've read it, i still lauf at the jokes dat he wrote.

it just amazed me how much dat he knew me. 

no matter how far we r after tiz, our memory will forever live. 

for those who r in a relationship rite now n r in stge 4 or 5,

please i beg u ! do something , wake up!! 

save ur relationship. 

u deserve it.

:-)

beR - anGan

AAAaaaahhh~

Finally, I got a music player in my blog HAHA thanks to

Farien Damien , without whom, my blog would hv still be plane damn BOooorRIIING.

Anyway, I’ve been away for quite sometime. Actually bkoz I don’t know wat to update 2 u lots but now with the ever so fabulous Norah Jones playing in the background, I just felt I wana express something here about what I hv been tru tis past few days.

Ever since the fashion show, I just sat home n went to my Dr. appointment once a week. I thought that I would be damn bored at home but actually It kept me thinkin especially everynyte b4 I went 2 sleep. I think about tons of things , love, life , career to name a few. But most of the nyte I dono y but I kept tinkin about my love n career life.

LOVE –

Well we all know wat love is rite. Some say love is blind koz everybody fall in love wit some1 dat to us, they don’t deserve each other but hey , love works in a mysterious way so don’t bother figuring it out . Just enjoy it while it is still there. Anyway, what kept me wake up is the thought that I wana fall in love again. I tink It has been so long since I give some1 my love n I know it is time to gv it. I know how special my love is. Only some1 with a true heart may hv it n I tink I’ve found dat some1 but im kinda afraid to , u know, approach dye. Haha malu konon! Anyway, im still tinkin of giving out clues b4 I pop out da question which I tink is a good way otherwise if I just ask point blank “do u wana be my forever after?” uiiiish! Kejo giloo. So for now, im gona try my best to make sure dat 1 day , me n u together 4 eternity ;-)

CAREER –

*sigh . im 19 soon 20 , 21 , tick tock tick tock the clock is tickin and the graveyard is callin. Hahaha gile dowh! Soon I’ll have to work n earn a living. kawen ?  owhhh! Nonono not for me, I have tekad x nak kawen. But since I love children so im planning when I hv a luxurious living im gona adopt a baby boy whom I will love n care forever. Y baby boy? Simply bkoz sng jage n I want him to have evrytin dat I don’t hv during my zaman kanak2. Im gona make sure hes cute hot n hensem, lots of gurls or boys(u nvr know riiite hahaha) chasin after him. im gona send him to the best of school and give him dance lesson, music, evrytin he wants! Yes im gona spoil him bkoz i know dat my son will nvr betray me even if he is spoil. whatever hes decision ,I’ll support him all the way trough. I wana be the best father any1 could ever wish for. WAAAH! Besar cite2 kau !! hahahah graduate pon belom kaaan~!! Haha . Im gona buy a luxury 2 story apartment, or at least buy a house kat atas bukit yg overlooking kl AAawwwwwh~ wat a view!! Just me n my son , my maid n my butler. 

p/s : x salah ade cite2 besau kan ;) 

fiRe-w0rk!!! ;)

helo helo helo ! 

hahaha im soooo hapy today that i feel like i wana fly off 2 the sky n be free damn! im feelin fantastic

so ok, sbb nyer is , 

today kan ade fashion show kat pavi tu so i went there with

the 1 n only most handsome , hunky, tall Beautiful friend i've ever had since high school 

ijat khabir.

so mlm ni nak story2 la pasal date* ngn dye ceh hahah marah budak tu kang! ;p

anyway nie story dye, ok so kitorang plan today nak grak kul 2

the plan was dat im gona pick him at his house but how da hell in this universe boleh kete i wat hal 

harini gak so i pun klamkabut kol dye cakap 

"ijat ko naik tren pai bts aku jumpe ko kat sane"

dye pon ok je, so kite jumpe la kat bts ~

hualaweeeeh!!! dari jauh terase bahang hot-ness dye tu.

 mentang2 model so body dye mmg cyes sexy dgn shape mcm tu. 

i pun sbb kn kwn n da lme giler x hang out so butekan je la mate n hati hoho

since da lame x jumpe la kan so agak awkward la 1st tyme td 

we both were tryin to hide sometin , 

well actly , i was tryin to control n hiding2

but then after a while huaaa baru ku tau mamat ni wat pe slame ni. 

caye x caye, ijat da social .

i mean hes a human being . 

hes a kl people. 

hes a celebrity of his own world. 

gosh there r tons of things dat i know about him just now

maybe the fact dat we both very social, 

we drink, we party , we clubbing 

so i tink dat he found me more approachable then the rest of his frens. 

i tink la kan. 

anywaym back to da story, then from bts kitowang grak hang tuah then jalan kaki pai ts

yg best nyer ble da sampai ts si ijat ni plak ckp 

"weh aku pnt r, berpeloh 1 bdn"

-,-

i was like ijat ! u r mr mucle wat hapen!?

hohoho

but then nvrmind kitowang g toilet jap dye nak betolkan make up dye

hahaha

then grak pavi. 

sampai pavi i told him dat i wana blanje him makan 

bkoz he just got accepted to become a flight attendent dat day so 

nak celebrate la kan

then 

i tanye dye 

"ijat ko nak mkn ape?ak blanje ko" then as usual

they will always said suke aty aku x kisah

=,= come on la nak blanje kot

then after pikir3 ingat nak bwk la dye mkn kat ben's TETAPI!

haaar dye punye down-to-earth la dye kate x nak koz mahal. 

for me, i dnt really care about the price instead

he wana go for kfc so i pun ok la jom la kfc pun kfc la aku yg blanje 

hohoho

then smpai kfc, i ordered a huge order just for him.

so tgh2 mkn tu kitorang borak la psl kesusahan dye nak jd flight attendant 

peerh punye la payah n strict giler 

kire i respect him n proud dat he made it. 

GOOD JOB MA MAN! 

tyme nie jugak la dye cite kat i psl dye yg i cam wow! gak la

koz dulu malaikat je skang huaaa, malaikat pun kalah hahaha  

sume3 la dye cite.

then after mkn3 all dat i bwk dye g tmpat keje i 3rd floor, blanje minum 

kami pun duk3 refill2 pai la kul 7 grak la pvi tgk show tu.

well,

just as i suspected dat its gona be boring. 

its damn boring.

1- to many people

2- its not private or exclusive

3- too damn many people

4- the model got covered in all black skin suit

WTH!!

me n ijat went out rite after the men collection. 

damn bored. 

so kitorang pun balek la afterwards. 

well, otw nak blek tu adela kan borak2 mcm3 kan 

but x kan nak ctew sni hoho

mane leh! kawan tuuh! 

i love my friends. 

so anyway, i had a blast hang out with him n 

he is now officially will be the 1 i call 1st to hang out with next tyme

hoho 

love yah!

-no tiTle -

title-less post .
y?recen
bekoz no word can simplify wat im about to story3 tonite. huhu

since it has been awhile so , there r actly plenty to talk about

but

im gona stick to the important 1 only.

whch is abt me 

as ALWAYS 

hohoho.

anyway,

recently, well not recently but last week,

i went shoppin at Celio my fav boutique

and, they invite me to a fashion show.

their brand launchin for exact. 

they told me that its the 1st tyme that they r hosting a fashion show 

anywhere in asia n the fact dat its in malaysia just make me proud to be malaysian hoho

so this thrusday, im goin to that fashion show at pavi center court ,7pm

to all my frens who dont hv invites, dont worry, u still can come and c it from outside the court. 

;p

anyway,

since i got the invite, i went shoppin for some spring n summer collection . i love spring , bkoz their fashion is just so relax n u dont hv to tink about it much. not like any other season where it almost took me 30 mnt to figure out what to wear evrday . 

but spring uh~

anytin could do. 

about my partner, im takin the famous ijat khabir, 

my high skol fren. 

i was goin to ask meor but since i have issue wit him 

so, 

there u go.

im tinking after tht fashion show, im goin to top hat koz its damn early to go home at 10pm rite so 

mind as well enjoy the nyte. 

anyway,

( y do i keep sayin dat word)

huuurm wat next ,

owh yeah!

i met with some cute guys. 

hoho

this 1 guy aclty a boy, a 15 y.o boy

he is just so cute i cyesly couldnt take my eye off him. hes been workin part time at my place n thanks god! he  is placed under my care n guidance. 

he is damn cute he remind me of you leong. 

i really like the way he move. he got that X-factor on him . 

u know,he always running when he is workin. i mean, literally running 

i was like, "hey ah boi, hold ur horses, relax a bit, no rush, the guest arent goin anywhere"

hahaha so cute. 

soo lokin 4ward to c him again. 

;)

it maDe me THINK!

there must be at least a moment in ur life where u pause for a while and start to think wat will happen in the future be given ur status quo. i for 1, am currently in that situation. 

i've been thinking about it all day rite from the moment i woke up till now and the fact that i've got no1 to tell makes me even eager to write it in my blog so that my famly and frens especially wancho, i know u r reading tis, u always do. ;) 

the question that i've been askin my self throughout da day is "wat if?" . 

what if , for those who know the situation that im in rite now, what if, its get worst?

what if, my dad, couldn't take it anymore?

what if, something happen to me dad?

could i step up to be the head of the famly as i should be?

i've been finding a way out of this and i notice that there r none. 

i could either, dont tink of it, which is damn F* impossible

or

solve it in any way that i can. 

ever since i realized my situation, i began to be more less communicative as i used to. 

i dont talk to people much, 

although i m in desperate need of some1 to talk to. 

i go out often by MYSELF. 

watching movies by myself, 

eating out by myself, 

shopping by myself, 

everytin.

i found myself less attracted to people,

only those group of people that i can trust n known for some time that i talk to.

i listen to jazz musics without any logical explanation.

evrytin is because 

WHAT IF?

wheel of FATE

 life is full of surprise

How does it come to this?

Indeed that you can never predict the future and the only sane thing to do is plan for the worst. Because when the worst comes, you must be prepare both physically and most important, mentally. I just finished my foundation studies in kedah last Thursday, and the excitement was unimaginable. I was so excited that I packed all my things a week before the final exam. I can’t wait to get back home, having a nice long hot shower, sleep in that cold bed in my cozy little room and sleeping while listening to the radio on my laptop, online and chattin til late night. Ha ha. I cant believe that I was so naïve to expect that nothing has change back home. The confident and normal look In my parents faces was convincing enuf that I know back home nothing has change. However, I couldn’t help but noticed that they kept on saying that I shouldn’t be so excited to go back home. Anyone that has been away for 1 year will most probably be missing home so much and eagerly to get home. But my parents played it cool and slow. So as my brother. I asked him about school. About how does he go to school every day, then he said the same bus of course. Nice one bro. thanks for hiding the truth from me and trying to comfort me with that manja-ing. I love you so much. I know that something was not right when my father deliberately pass the junction to our house. “nak pergi amik angah “ they say , funny that my maid was home , why should my brother be at some1 else house. That was when I start thinking. When we pulled over in front of this semi detached house with the lights turned off I was like, “ kanpe ttup lampu? Bukan ke adk aku ade” and my mom said that let me call my fren , but I notice that she kept on holding the phone but not calling any1. Then my father just pop out the fact “ hey this is our new house lah!” . all I can say was “hah” and the only thing I remember saying after that was, “ …” nothing. I only responded to questions asked by my parents and nothing else. I didn’t say anything , not a single word. How does it come to this? I was living large in serdang and now, 2 story house , half the size of my previous one. The only question that I wana ask is how long will it be? 

I need a friend

I never felt like this since you leong left me. This is the exact feeling that im having when you leong left me. helpless, clueless, I feel like suffocating , screaming but no 1 hear you. is this my fault? I need a friend, but who? You leong is buzy, fauzi is in ipoh. I need someone that already know me and understand my life. someone who knows my life journey from the very beginning. Someone like you leong and fauzi. Who? I alone in this empty world. no one care about me and no one want to.

its mY worSt nOightmare!!!!

Its not happening!

Its not happening!

Its not happening!!!!!!!!!

no wonder la paper physics today senang mcm makan kacang !!

it seems that ade udang sbalek mee udang! 

ok cite dye cam nie,

i was having my physics paper this morning and to my surprise the Q was not that hard. 

i answered it all with ease. 

then just as i tot that evryting gona be fine today, its not

me mom called n she was all happy n jolly at 1st then 

come the utterly bad news for me.

she said 

"along sory la ibu n baba tak boleh amik la khamis nie....."

i was like 

"hAh! y lah"

then she told me that rizqan n athyna are having their exam this week n angah got olahraga thingy, 

HUUUUAAaaaa! i wana go home. i dont wana stay here !

my mom told me that they can only pick me up on saturday 

0.0

duh!

paling lame pun hari jumaat budak2 lain da clear. x kan la kene tgu sni sampai sabtu. 

tidAAAAAAK!

no matter how , i will go home on thursday.

note it!

but how yah? ;p

you lOsing Me DeAr =(

long distance relationship, huh 

people says it suppose to be more romantic then normal relationship.

im stating to doubt that. 

apple pie, bile awak kate awak nak saya, saya pun time tu tengah mencari jalan untuk amik awak 

jadi saya punye . awak kate awak sayang saya, tapi mane bukti nyer? saya dah bg full komitmen da. 

saya prasan yg awak nie careerist , orng yg pentingkan life kerjaya more then life as a human being

but saya x kish sbb , at first. now, awak nak text saya pun shari skali je. saya bukan nak text awak 24 jam 

tapi saya nak awak jd part of my life n part of myself. saya nak awak jd tmpat say mengadu, tmpat saye luahkan sumenye, tapi, since awak lebih pentingkan bende lain so saya x nak la kacau . 

saya tau , saya slalu kacau awak nak study , saya mintak maaf sgt. tp org lain pun study jugak takde pulak diorang buzy je setiap mase. sometimes tu saya tgu awak msj or kol saya sampai 3 o 4pg sbb awak yg kate lepas habis keje awak nak text saye, nak kol saye , tapi. 

bau pun xdak!

saya dah mule rase mcm saye nie single . n sory la if awak prasan saye flirt dgn kwn2 saye dlm fb. tu sume sbb saye bosan . dah awak buzy sgt seye msj x blaz.

baby, b bukan nak demand sgt tpi i need to know that i m the 1 that u r looking for. baby i x nak salah pilih lagi. 

baby, 

i nak str8 4ward la nan u , i ade huge crush nan some1 else. dye kawan i , i anggap dye as my best fren. bby tau x, b4 i met dye, i dop b lonely gile as if b tgl kat dlm the deepest hell sensowang. after b kenal dye, omg , bby dengar lagu fireworks ketty perry en mcm tu la prasaan b tau after knal dye. mcm ade fireworks dlm bdn. tp bby,  dye just my fren m dats y i cant go further with him. dye cute, dye funny, dye active, dye baik n the best thing is dye childish mcm b and pendek mcm b haha.tapi dye study jauh kat ipoh but we still contact n bile contact tu best sgt. bby, if dye bg diri i ase mcm ade fireworks, bby tau x bby wat b rase mcm mane? u give the chance to fall in love again. b4, i was so damn fuck of with love but with u bby, b ase urrrrgh! suke sgt! it has been a long time since i said I LOVE YOU. and I DO LOVE YOU SAYANG. i just dont know u ckp u love i tu jujur or smate2 x nak bg i marah. =( i bg tau so that u phm2 la sndri. n i at the same time syg u as much as i like the person who i hv crush with. baby, if u prolonged this situation, im afraid ....

 ntah la bby ,

You are losing me my dear

=(

2 0 daYs ! !

oMg! can you believe it?? 

there is only 20 days left till i finish foundation. 

HAHAHAHA  

i thought that it was just yesterday i posted about 35 days of countdown and now theres is only 20 days left. 

i am just so excited now. i cant wait to finish my finals and go home and finally out of this god forsaken place hahaha!

despite im being free at home, im sure im gonna miss my fren especially fauzi. maybe i should go to ipoh for a few weeks hehe, i miss the night where is celebrate his bday. thanks to the pirates, you guys made it so much cooler. that night was a brief of his bday surprise . theres a lot more to come. he'll just have to wait till his bday then. hehe.

anway, i m so excited to finish the last 20 nights of my life here in kmkn. to those who think i m annoying or there is something wrong with me, i just wana say that watever it is you guys talk about me, 

I DONT GIVE A DAMN ABOUT IT

im just being who i am, and if you dont like it fine just dont talk to me and dont talk behind my back . if you think that i m so wrong then what about you? you tink your so perfect ?

just a little something to tink about

cheers,

3 5 , ,

let the people say that im obsess about goin home so what! duh! who wana stay here in this shit-hole so far away from anything. 35 days and counting, gosh! i just can t wait to get home, i think ive gone crazy about it. im always tease people all the time, laughing nonstop. always jumpin around. i even talk and acually be friend with students i nvr even know was here. huh! wat the hell kan ? anyway, i have to admit that im gonna miss everybody here, especially my chemist tcer aka mentor aka 2nd mom aka mdm suhada, my english tcer, mdm rose the best and coolest tcer in kmkn , my classmate whom i hate and love at the same time haha, but i'll nver miss this college though, it will nvr be in my memory. just the people in it. haaah!,

35 dayssssss!

cheers

coUld It be . . .

On the first day God created the dog. God said, "Sit all day by the door of your house and bark at anyone who comes in or walks past. I will give you a life span of twenty years." The dog said, "That's too long to be barking. Give me ten years and I'll give you back the other ten."
So God agreed.

On the second day God created the monkey. God said, "Entertain people, do monkey tricks and make them laugh. I'll give you a twenty-year life span." The monkey said, "Monkey tricks for twenty years? I don't think so. Dog gave you back ten, so that's what I'll do too, okay?"
And God agreed.

On the third day God created the cow. "You must go to the field with the farmer all day long and suffer under the sun, have calves, and give milk to support the farmer. I will give you a life span of sixty years."
The cow said, "That's kind of a tough life you want me to live for sixty years. Let me have twenty and I'll give back the other forty."
And God agreed again.

On the fourth day God created man. God said, "Eat, sleep, play, marry and enjoy your life. I'll give you twenty years."
Man said, "What? Only twenty years? Tell you what, I'll take my twenty, and the forty the cow gave back, and the ten the monkey gave back, and the ten the dog gave back, that makes eighty, okay?"

Okay," said God, "You've got a deal."

So that is why the first twenty years we eat, sleep, play, and enjoy ourselves; the next forty years we slave in the sun to support our family; the next ten years we do monkey tricks to entertain the grandchildren; and the last ten years we sit on the front porch and bark at everyone.

Life has now been explained to you.

hahahaha, 

cheers,

la mia pAssionE . .

ever since im in kmkn, my taste buds can barely open itself to the dishes that has been prepared for us by the college. back home , i usually cook my own lunch and dinner but here, i have to either take it or leave it. i am stuck here with foods that are not satisfying and thank god im got just another month to stay here. i miss the moment where i tossed that french toast in the frying pan, scramble the egg , boil the spaghetti, tossed the salad. i just cant wait to get back home . to make things worst , i have to left my passion at home whenever i come here bcoz there is not a single mall or even store that supply my one n only passion.


cheers,

liFe . .

Sometimes people come into your life & you know right away that they were meant to be there, to serve some sort of purpose, teach you a lesson, or help you figure out who you are & or who you want to become You never know who these people may be (possibly your roommate, neighbor, professor, long lost friend, lover, or even a complete stranger), but when you lock eyes with them, you know at the very moment that they will affect your life in some profound way.
and sometime things will happen to you that may seem horrible, painful, & unfair at first, but in reflection you find that without overcoming these obstacles that you would have never realized your true potential, strength, will power, or heart
Everything happens for a reason. Nothing happens by chance or by mean of good luck. Illness, injury, love, lost moments of true greatness & sheer stupidity all occur to test the limits of your soul. Without this small test, whatever they may be, life would be like a smoothly paved, straight, flat road to nowhere. It would be safe & comfortable, but dull and utterly pointless.
The people that you meet who affect your life, and the success and downfalls you experience, help to create who you are and who you will become Even the bad experiences are learned from. In fact, they are the most poignant ones.
If someone hurts you, betrays you, or breaks your heart, forgive them for they have helped you learn about trust and the importance of being cautious when you open your heart. If someone loves you, love them back unconditionally, not only because they love you, but because in a way, they are teaching you to love & how to open your heart & eyes to things.
Make everyday count. Appreciate every moment & take from those moments everything you could possibly can for you may never be able to experience it again. Talk to people that you have never talked to before & actually listen... Let yourself fall in love again, break free, and set your sights high. Hold your head up because you have every right too.
Tell yourself that you are a great individual & believe in yourself. For if you don't believe in yourself, it will be hard for others to believe in you. You can make your life anything you wish.....Create your own life & then go out & live it with absolutely NO REGRETS. Most importantly, if you love someone tell him or her, for you NEVER know what tomorrow may have in store. And learn a lesson in life each day you live.
Today is the tomorrow you were worried about yesterday.... Was it worth it?

time t0 mAke misTakeS . . .

when we were young , people used to ask

"what do you want to be when you grow up?" 

and we said 

"pilot, lawyer,the prime minister, ..."

then when we get more mature, they asked again, and we said

"engineer, chef, event manager, ..."

as we grow older, they want some serious answer.

and so here goes,we said:

"the hell with it, i dont know .. 0.0' " 

we will never know what lies ahead, what we can do is plan. so, now is the time to make mistake, change courses, experience , thats what life is all about. experience. 

later when people ask again what are going to be. we dont have to think, we already know. 

sounds familiar huh. haha

anyway, i agree 100% with what she said. when i was little i always wanted to be a pilot. even though i am only 158 cm but i always excited when it comes to airplane.

during high school, i change my mind from being a pilot to become an engineer. the scientific knowledge fascinates me. however, in engineering school, i began to realize that the field dosent suites me.

i am an outgoing person. i like to socialize, travel a lot especially, meet people, learn about the world. i know , in engineering, i couldnt possibly do the stuff i like. i hate physics and math. even though that its the most important subject in the world rite? but now, i know that i dont want to "have" to do something instead, i "want" to do something. life is a challenge i know that but the challenge is what you make of it. if you have to do something , the challenge that u'll face gonna be a lot diffrent from the challenge of wanting to do something. it will be a fun challenge that you always waiting for , because its what you want to do.

so for me, i wana make a final judgment. after i finish foundation next month, i want to find a way to realize my 1 and only dream from i was young. to TRAVEL. i like to see the world. experience is what im looking for. this will be my goal for 2011. dont be afraid to do whats right for you. find means.life is to enjoy it, not to suffer.


cheers,

holDing oN . .

im holding on.

to something that is maybe pointless and worthless to others
but priceless to me.
life has kept you busy, but i'll never stop waiting for i know it will only be temporary .
nothing in this world that can bribe me on letting go of what im holding on rite now.
kill me, for that will be the only way i'll let go of it.

waiting for YOU is not a waste of time baby.

cheers,

p/s : XOXOXOXOXXXXXX miss u la f