black mOnday . .

nothing are more frustrating and boring then having to  spend the rest of the day home alone. but having the whole house by myself is actually like a dream come true. i can do whatever i want whenever i want.

so the plan for today is that m planning to become Jamie Oliver jr. haha! i just love to cook. it keeps me occupied and forget about the loneliness , the sorrow and the guilt . somehow cooking has become a passion to me. am i suppose to be a chef? 

but i still feel guilty for what i've done and being home alone only makes the guiltiness worst . i hope he'll forgive me, i didn't mean to make him feel jealous or anything, i just wana have fun and get to know him better. i am so so so so so sory buddy.