wheel of FATE

 life is full of surprise

How does it come to this?

Indeed that you can never predict the future and the only sane thing to do is plan for the worst. Because when the worst comes, you must be prepare both physically and most important, mentally. I just finished my foundation studies in kedah last Thursday, and the excitement was unimaginable. I was so excited that I packed all my things a week before the final exam. I can’t wait to get back home, having a nice long hot shower, sleep in that cold bed in my cozy little room and sleeping while listening to the radio on my laptop, online and chattin til late night. Ha ha. I cant believe that I was so naïve to expect that nothing has change back home. The confident and normal look In my parents faces was convincing enuf that I know back home nothing has change. However, I couldn’t help but noticed that they kept on saying that I shouldn’t be so excited to go back home. Anyone that has been away for 1 year will most probably be missing home so much and eagerly to get home. But my parents played it cool and slow. So as my brother. I asked him about school. About how does he go to school every day, then he said the same bus of course. Nice one bro. thanks for hiding the truth from me and trying to comfort me with that manja-ing. I love you so much. I know that something was not right when my father deliberately pass the junction to our house. “nak pergi amik angah “ they say , funny that my maid was home , why should my brother be at some1 else house. That was when I start thinking. When we pulled over in front of this semi detached house with the lights turned off I was like, “ kanpe ttup lampu? Bukan ke adk aku ade” and my mom said that let me call my fren , but I notice that she kept on holding the phone but not calling any1. Then my father just pop out the fact “ hey this is our new house lah!” . all I can say was “hah” and the only thing I remember saying after that was, “ …” nothing. I only responded to questions asked by my parents and nothing else. I didn’t say anything , not a single word. How does it come to this? I was living large in serdang and now, 2 story house , half the size of my previous one. The only question that I wana ask is how long will it be? 

I need a friend

I never felt like this since you leong left me. This is the exact feeling that im having when you leong left me. helpless, clueless, I feel like suffocating , screaming but no 1 hear you. is this my fault? I need a friend, but who? You leong is buzy, fauzi is in ipoh. I need someone that already know me and understand my life. someone who knows my life journey from the very beginning. Someone like you leong and fauzi. Who? I alone in this empty world. no one care about me and no one want to.

its mY worSt nOightmare!!!!

Its not happening!

Its not happening!

Its not happening!!!!!!!!!

no wonder la paper physics today senang mcm makan kacang !!

it seems that ade udang sbalek mee udang! 

ok cite dye cam nie,

i was having my physics paper this morning and to my surprise the Q was not that hard. 

i answered it all with ease. 

then just as i tot that evryting gona be fine today, its not

me mom called n she was all happy n jolly at 1st then 

come the utterly bad news for me.

she said 

"along sory la ibu n baba tak boleh amik la khamis nie....."

i was like 

"hAh! y lah"

then she told me that rizqan n athyna are having their exam this week n angah got olahraga thingy, 

HUUUUAAaaaa! i wana go home. i dont wana stay here !

my mom told me that they can only pick me up on saturday 

0.0

duh!

paling lame pun hari jumaat budak2 lain da clear. x kan la kene tgu sni sampai sabtu. 

tidAAAAAAK!

no matter how , i will go home on thursday.

note it!

but how yah? ;p

you lOsing Me DeAr =(

long distance relationship, huh 

people says it suppose to be more romantic then normal relationship.

im stating to doubt that. 

apple pie, bile awak kate awak nak saya, saya pun time tu tengah mencari jalan untuk amik awak 

jadi saya punye . awak kate awak sayang saya, tapi mane bukti nyer? saya dah bg full komitmen da. 

saya prasan yg awak nie careerist , orng yg pentingkan life kerjaya more then life as a human being

but saya x kish sbb , at first. now, awak nak text saya pun shari skali je. saya bukan nak text awak 24 jam 

tapi saya nak awak jd part of my life n part of myself. saya nak awak jd tmpat say mengadu, tmpat saye luahkan sumenye, tapi, since awak lebih pentingkan bende lain so saya x nak la kacau . 

saya tau , saya slalu kacau awak nak study , saya mintak maaf sgt. tp org lain pun study jugak takde pulak diorang buzy je setiap mase. sometimes tu saya tgu awak msj or kol saya sampai 3 o 4pg sbb awak yg kate lepas habis keje awak nak text saye, nak kol saye , tapi. 

bau pun xdak!

saya dah mule rase mcm saye nie single . n sory la if awak prasan saye flirt dgn kwn2 saye dlm fb. tu sume sbb saye bosan . dah awak buzy sgt seye msj x blaz.

baby, b bukan nak demand sgt tpi i need to know that i m the 1 that u r looking for. baby i x nak salah pilih lagi. 

baby, 

i nak str8 4ward la nan u , i ade huge crush nan some1 else. dye kawan i , i anggap dye as my best fren. bby tau x, b4 i met dye, i dop b lonely gile as if b tgl kat dlm the deepest hell sensowang. after b kenal dye, omg , bby dengar lagu fireworks ketty perry en mcm tu la prasaan b tau after knal dye. mcm ade fireworks dlm bdn. tp bby,  dye just my fren m dats y i cant go further with him. dye cute, dye funny, dye active, dye baik n the best thing is dye childish mcm b and pendek mcm b haha.tapi dye study jauh kat ipoh but we still contact n bile contact tu best sgt. bby, if dye bg diri i ase mcm ade fireworks, bby tau x bby wat b rase mcm mane? u give the chance to fall in love again. b4, i was so damn fuck of with love but with u bby, b ase urrrrgh! suke sgt! it has been a long time since i said I LOVE YOU. and I DO LOVE YOU SAYANG. i just dont know u ckp u love i tu jujur or smate2 x nak bg i marah. =( i bg tau so that u phm2 la sndri. n i at the same time syg u as much as i like the person who i hv crush with. baby, if u prolonged this situation, im afraid ....

 ntah la bby ,

You are losing me my dear

=(

2 0 daYs ! !

oMg! can you believe it?? 

there is only 20 days left till i finish foundation. 

HAHAHAHA  

i thought that it was just yesterday i posted about 35 days of countdown and now theres is only 20 days left. 

i am just so excited now. i cant wait to finish my finals and go home and finally out of this god forsaken place hahaha!

despite im being free at home, im sure im gonna miss my fren especially fauzi. maybe i should go to ipoh for a few weeks hehe, i miss the night where is celebrate his bday. thanks to the pirates, you guys made it so much cooler. that night was a brief of his bday surprise . theres a lot more to come. he'll just have to wait till his bday then. hehe.

anway, i m so excited to finish the last 20 nights of my life here in kmkn. to those who think i m annoying or there is something wrong with me, i just wana say that watever it is you guys talk about me, 

I DONT GIVE A DAMN ABOUT IT

im just being who i am, and if you dont like it fine just dont talk to me and dont talk behind my back . if you think that i m so wrong then what about you? you tink your so perfect ?

just a little something to tink about

cheers,

3 5 , ,

let the people say that im obsess about goin home so what! duh! who wana stay here in this shit-hole so far away from anything. 35 days and counting, gosh! i just can t wait to get home, i think ive gone crazy about it. im always tease people all the time, laughing nonstop. always jumpin around. i even talk and acually be friend with students i nvr even know was here. huh! wat the hell kan ? anyway, i have to admit that im gonna miss everybody here, especially my chemist tcer aka mentor aka 2nd mom aka mdm suhada, my english tcer, mdm rose the best and coolest tcer in kmkn , my classmate whom i hate and love at the same time haha, but i'll nver miss this college though, it will nvr be in my memory. just the people in it. haaah!,

35 dayssssss!

cheers

coUld It be . . .

On the first day God created the dog. God said, "Sit all day by the door of your house and bark at anyone who comes in or walks past. I will give you a life span of twenty years." The dog said, "That's too long to be barking. Give me ten years and I'll give you back the other ten."
So God agreed.

On the second day God created the monkey. God said, "Entertain people, do monkey tricks and make them laugh. I'll give you a twenty-year life span." The monkey said, "Monkey tricks for twenty years? I don't think so. Dog gave you back ten, so that's what I'll do too, okay?"
And God agreed.

On the third day God created the cow. "You must go to the field with the farmer all day long and suffer under the sun, have calves, and give milk to support the farmer. I will give you a life span of sixty years."
The cow said, "That's kind of a tough life you want me to live for sixty years. Let me have twenty and I'll give back the other forty."
And God agreed again.

On the fourth day God created man. God said, "Eat, sleep, play, marry and enjoy your life. I'll give you twenty years."
Man said, "What? Only twenty years? Tell you what, I'll take my twenty, and the forty the cow gave back, and the ten the monkey gave back, and the ten the dog gave back, that makes eighty, okay?"

Okay," said God, "You've got a deal."

So that is why the first twenty years we eat, sleep, play, and enjoy ourselves; the next forty years we slave in the sun to support our family; the next ten years we do monkey tricks to entertain the grandchildren; and the last ten years we sit on the front porch and bark at everyone.

Life has now been explained to you.

hahahaha, 

cheers,

la mia pAssionE . .

ever since im in kmkn, my taste buds can barely open itself to the dishes that has been prepared for us by the college. back home , i usually cook my own lunch and dinner but here, i have to either take it or leave it. i am stuck here with foods that are not satisfying and thank god im got just another month to stay here. i miss the moment where i tossed that french toast in the frying pan, scramble the egg , boil the spaghetti, tossed the salad. i just cant wait to get back home . to make things worst , i have to left my passion at home whenever i come here bcoz there is not a single mall or even store that supply my one n only passion.


cheers,